what would you do?

i was asked to stay the fuck away from her dude..that aint cool coz its not fair and sakit sa ulo tlaga... u know y??

1. i dont have a say in it coz i cant let her be caught between me n her folks..
2. i know in the end no matter how giddygood i am..im still no good for each and every single person in her place..(GAAAAH)
3. i dont wana reach the point where her guys s gonaask her to choose..coz that so fucking un fair coz in the end i know she cant and wont choose me..

darnit this suck!!...
y dont i have a say in this!!??

d worst feeling n the world is when somethin big is happening in ur life and u cant do anything about it...

oh..im still here.. what da heck...im happy...almost..happy..

MEMORIES!

If you read this journal,
even if I don't speak to you often,
post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want.
It can be good or bad,
just as long as it happened.

Then post this to your journal( if you have one.).
See what people remember about you.

something worth reading *wink*

i dreamt about dreaming that i went back to our old hse...in my dream i woke up that was just dreaming.then i woke up again that the dream was just a dream...shit...im startin to lose it

the good thing was i think i had the feel how neo felt in the matrix... *wink* *BOINK* we gotta watch constantine!!!!


dreams agen...couldnt think of anything to write...
neways another addition to my weird dreams this past few days...
im not really sure but i think i already have an idea how it feels like to die...

in my dream i was dead ok?(DUH)so here we go i was dead right? afterwards i saw *BOINK* and she was cryin..actually alot of peeps were cryin.. i wanted to call boink but she coudnt here me gaaaah..super badtrip i was shouting at her i wanted to tell her something..(i forgot wut it was) so there i was shouting waaah!! but yeah she couldnt here me... i was like this is so stupid y do dead guys in the movie can blow winds or break glass windows...shit... i was like noooo this is some bullshit crap!!!
then i cried,,cried like a frekin girl till my eyes dried up i knew wut i wanted.. i coudnt talk to boink i couldnt touch her all i coud think of is the worst thing that a person cud do to himself..guess wut came in2 my mind?? HELL YEAH I WANTED TO DIE!! ooops but wait a sec.. DUDE!!! DUH UR ALREADY DEAD!!!
in this world they say that the worst thing that cud happen to you physically is die...but whats next to death?..i dont know all i know is that it scared the shit out of me..and all i can think of is tell boink how much i love her..haaay yuck..it turned to a mushy story na corny...neways

GUYS MORAL LESSON OF THE STORY!! we dont know what tom may bring(only GOd knows dat)
My suggestion tell everyone you care for how much u love them...as in kung kaya everyday dapat!!! you dont know tom aka wala na sila....huhuhuhuhu
ciao!!!
happy reading!!

GAaah... im back...just for the sake of writing

dont wana waste this blog so im juz gonna put things i got from friendster...im a fuckin loser!..dabg..give me a fuckin life!

33 things (im bored)
Message: 1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
--- marga the bull

2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?
--- single BUT NOT AVAILABLE

3. iF TAKEN, BY WHO?
--- Di nga taken eh! nyeta!! pero NOT AVAILABLE

4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERiOUSLY HURT BY THE
PERSON YOU LOVE/LOVED?
--- yup yup...wag na pagusapan...

5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED
SUiCiDAL?
--- if ever...Naaah...

6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
--- OMG! LABO?!?

7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
--- nuthin..

8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
--- the beauty is in the inside not on the outer
appearance *shallow hal*... neways i prefer smart cute chubby sweet...caring...dami...marga nlang para wala away

9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR
BF/GF?
--- ISA PA TATAMAAN KA NA!! KULIT!!!

10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:
---recently? d DARTH VADER aka (THE DARK SIDE) kakakakakaka....kaw kasi dimo ko tinetext eh huhuhu

11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE
GENDER? WHO?
--- maybe?...i consider her as my bestfriend...i dont know da hell i am to her...BNS(bhala na si SPONGEBOB)

12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
--- listen to music or lyin' on my bed...give my pillow a nice F**kin Squuezee GRRRRR BADTRIP!!!

13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
--- Cheerful..i hope not boring...am i?

14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE.
--- there's no such thing as a perfect date,
bcoz sh!t happens!! GOT IT?!! GOOD!! OTAI?

15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY
iS BLUE? WHAT DO YOU THiNK?
--- WTF! masakit sa ulo ang sobrang pag iisip

16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
--- haaaay...

17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN?
WITH LOVE???
--- maybe....depends on her...

18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
--- Nope...let ur anger set with the sun...T*ngna para ginagawa ko un ah...di rin!!

19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP
WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
-- aaay..ewan ko ganun ba yun ginawa mo sakin last june?

20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT
YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW.
--- PISSED!!! i should be studyin for RLE n im stuck here RUNTING ABOUT MY DAY!!! GRRRR!!! KAKAASAR!!

21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
--- Yes, i am confident about what i feel!

22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
--- yup...sobrang katangahan...

23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
--- yup...

24. MOTTO iN LiFE.
--- its never too early to realize love but at ANY MOMENT IT COULD BE TOO LATE!!!

25. HAVE YOU EVER DOUBTED THAT SOMETiMES?
--- NEVER

26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELiNGS ABOUT A
BEST FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
--- yup...NOT GOOD!!

27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT? iF NO,
WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
--- I destroyed our friendship mwahahahaha!!!

28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN
YOUR LiFE?
--- mas gusto ko ung mga memories, money is just
a "thing"


29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN
YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
--- sabi nila wala naman daw...kun meron so what!

30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
--- yup yup...pero pag "XA" un tmwag n nagicing..ahh ibang usapan na yan.

31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
--- when theres a chance

32. ARE YOU CONVENiENT WiTH THAT?
--- yes, but too much sleep will make your
stomach big.

33. LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?
--- yuk! hell no!...imagine a perfect person(not god ok?) damn...hirap siguro xa ihanap ng gf/bf..kasi lahat d bagay sa knya

wut? hu says im fat?duh! i dont have a big butt@@

i visited boink today..i arrived at about 4 somthin..one of her frens was so pale bak then super hungry..actually she lookd funny back then hahaha i bought her fishballs from d guy outside unfortn8ley we werent able to do the tusok tusok thing...the "fren came out and said "WOW FISHBALLS!!" i go "OO FISHBALLS" she was so funny..i told her that the fishball guy gave it for free coz she lookd so pale..she came to vendor and said thnk u..weird!! funny how peepol react when theyr hungry..

boink asked me if i wanted to go smewer cz she was hungry..1 of her frens suggestd this isawan in proj 4 suprisingly i said ok..=) the isaw was cheap it lookd clean also..i ate 4 isaw ng manok with 1 bulaklak..wit 1cup of rice once agen i felt like a pig..it was too greasy.. its not healthy but its delicious..i dont care about the grease and my getting too mch cholesterol..my oncern was i knew i was gettin fat..and boink kept on aying that i have a huge butt!!

i dont know if my butts too big or shes just making fun of me..neways next week m gna try to lose some pounds hopefully itl afeect my butt.. grrr!!! fin